This blog may never become public. But I do feel like I should record this journey in some way, especially in case some day i decide to share.
This is my journey to getting my life back after battling my weight for the past 16 years (since I became an adult) although really my food issues would have started further back than that. But that is a story for another day.
I am due to be sleeved 06/05/2016, starting weight 116.5 kg.
My health has gone so far down hill recently. Just moving around this body is hard work. I am only 158 cm tall, and am carrying twice the weight I should be. Meant to start my preop Optifast this friday (22/05/2016) (utter crap but I am doing what I am told pre-op) but have started it early while having some smaller meals still to ease into it. The dietician expects me to lose 4 kg before surgery. Its all about the liver shrinking, otherwise surgery is too hard for them. Its not fun, but I don't want to have this not done. I am ready to do this after being so against weight loss surgery for so long.
It is a tool, its not the easy way out. You still have to watch what you eat, and exercise just like anyone else. But its going to give me a kick start. It took a lot of soul searching to be happy about this, but I am ready to do this, and get my life back (although really I haven't really had a life so to speak, due to lots of trauma and abuse through my life) I just want to be happy, and live. This is the start of this journey.